{"id":88,"date":"2011-09-13T03:42:00","date_gmt":"2011-09-13T05:42:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/lifeinduality.com\/2011\/09\/confessions-part-1\/"},"modified":"2019-11-04T20:54:45","modified_gmt":"2019-11-04T22:54:45","slug":"confessions-part-1","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/lifeinduality.com\/?p=88","title":{"rendered":"Confessions: Part 1"},"content":{"rendered":"
\u00a0<\/span><\/div>\n
I feel like I\u2019m searching for Love\u2026 but all I find is Lust.<\/span><\/div>\n
That\u2019s my fault though. I got some issues with trust.<\/span><\/div>\n
It\u2019s not that I don\u2019t trust them\u2026 I really just don\u2019t trust myself<\/span><\/div>\n
Seems like every time I get close I just sabotage myself<\/span><\/div>\n
Like the Good Dude I met from the Bay<\/span><\/div>\n
He really tried to save me but I just kept getting in the way<\/span><\/div>\n
He gave this Woman almost everything she could ask for<\/span><\/div>\n
Respect, Trust, Security and so much more<\/span><\/div>\n
A couple superficial things kept clouding my view<\/span><\/div>\n
I just want you to know that when I\u2019m all alone I still think of you<\/span><\/div>\n
So I closed off my heart and Blocked out my mind<\/span><\/div>\n
Decided to find someone to occupy my time<\/span><\/div>\n
But when I met him, I was convinced we were meant to be<\/span><\/div>\n
Turns out all he wanted was my body, but that was cool with me<\/span><\/div>\n
I didn\u2019t have the energy to give him my mind<\/span><\/div>\n
So instead I gave him the pleasure of my slow grind<\/span><\/div>\n
Fucking the shit outta some other Woman\u2019s Man<\/span><\/div>\n
But wait.. Yo they were separated Ya\u2019ll understand<\/span><\/div>\n
And once I really Fucked up and had too much to drink<\/span><\/div>\n
Made a dumb ass decision, didn\u2019t bother to think<\/span><\/div>\n
Longing so bad for a little intimacy<\/span><\/div>\n
My fault Houston the fault is on me<\/span><\/div>\n
Too many nights filled with shot after shot<\/span><\/div>\n
I kept telling myself to slow down.. But damn I forgot<\/span><\/div>\n
And it\u2019s not like the liquor erases my memory<\/span><\/div>\n
It helps make my issues even more clear to me<\/span><\/div>\n
The pain\u2026 I know that\u2019s something real<\/span><\/div>\n
Don\u2019t have to second guess like this other shit I feel<\/span><\/div>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t need love just take me shopping\u201d<\/span><\/div>\n
\u201cPay a few bills and we can get it popping\u2019<\/span><\/div>\n
And what\u2019s funny is I don\u2019t even need their money<\/span><\/div>\n
But I wanna take from them like they be taking from me<\/span><\/div>\n
But I\u2019m smart enough not to confuse love with lust<\/span><\/div>\n
I know I\u2019m just new pussy and he just wanna bust<\/span><\/div>\n
Ol dude flew my across the country just to taste my shit<\/span><\/div>\n
He keep selling pipe dreams\u2026 but I know he aint shit<\/span><\/div>\n
At the end of the day, it\u2019s still all my fault<\/span><\/div>\n
This is my virtue and I need to protect my vault<\/span><\/div>\n
But I\u2019m feeling like my conscious is fucking with me<\/span><\/div>\n
One day its strict the next it runs free<\/span><\/div>\n
As I pour out my soul and confess my sins<\/span><\/div>\n
I\u2019m still not rid of the deception within<\/span><\/div>\n
I\u2019m as we speak planning one trip more<\/span><\/div>\n
To escape reality with a Man that\u2019s spoken for\u2026<\/span><\/div>\n

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\u00a0 I feel like I\u2019m searching for Love\u2026 but all I find is Lust. That\u2019s my fault though. I got some issues with trust. It\u2019s not that I don\u2019t trust them\u2026 I really just don\u2019t trust myself Seems like every time I get close I just sabotage myself Like the Good Dude I met from […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":216,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[33],"tags":[8,5,12,3],"class_list":["post-88","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-relationships-2","tag-love","tag-relationships","tag-sex","tag-women"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/lifeinduality.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/88","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/lifeinduality.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/lifeinduality.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lifeinduality.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lifeinduality.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=88"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/lifeinduality.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/88\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":217,"href":"https:\/\/lifeinduality.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/88\/revisions\/217"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lifeinduality.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/216"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/lifeinduality.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=88"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lifeinduality.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=88"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lifeinduality.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=88"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}